i just don't get it..

I love to write, like on my own, my journal or my own stories I make up.  I even occasionally like writing a poem on my own.  But when it comes to school assignments.. i chicken out and SUCK meh... well now I decided to do a poem that I started working on a couple of months ago, but never finished.. but I don't know what I did with the draft so I'm re-writing it and so far it's going good I guess, but it makes me sound like and emo child.. which I'm not by the way, lol it's not as bad as my nightmare poem or sonnet or something....... it was sad, I was literally supposed to be describing a nightmare, but it sounded like I was describing rape..... :/ I might post it sometime just to show it, but it was kinda scary lol