Career and Music Question

Well some of my main thoughts were focused on my future career today... omg I have no idea what I want to be.. but before I took these career tests and stuff as a first exploration of what I want to be for this school assignment I couldn't think of any other job I would want to be besides a vet (I've wanted to be that for all my life).  I love music so I could be a musician, I play the piano and violin and want to learn the guitar.. I love and CAN sing but musical jobs are kinda risky.. there's no guarantee that you'll be successful.. well I guess that's true for a lot of jobs.. I could be a hairstylist.. I occasionally on my own look up new hairstyles and try them out, I could be a video editor person, I love messing around with iMovie and stuff.. but i wouldn't focus on that I might get sick of sitting at a computer.. I could try to be an actor.. but that's also something I might not look into that much.. I love to draw but I don't really think that could be a good career of mine.. just a hobby and I could also be a music composer and photographer.. etc. I got my highest score in the artistic part and then in investigative (like veterinarian) which was not much lower but still.. and the rest were basically zero.. but it wasn't based on my skill just interest

Personally these quizzes were extremely stupid.. I mean one of questions was would you rather drive a car or do this and idk it was kinda dumb.. but they still did give me a to think about, anyways, what I always wanted to be was a vet as i said earlier.  I LOVE animals and would love to work with them when I'm older.  But i need to take more job shadows, the one I did last year in 8th grade wasn't very good, I mean it was, but not a lot of variety in three hours, a lot of dental procedures and stuff.. but I need to see if I can handle a lot of blood like in surgeries cause idk how well I can.. and I would need to get used to the fact of animals dying and euthanasia.. :/ and yeah.. oh well I still got time to figure all of this out.. but not a ton..

Ok and now my music question thing.. I've always wondered this before.. there are only so many notes like on a piano and I wonder if we'll ever run out of new and unique music!  Cause that would really suck..  I actually looked it up lol and basically most people think that there are so many new instruments and variations of single notes that we probably won't run out in our lifetime but it's possible someday in the future... 

not looking forward to school...

I really, really, really don't want to go to school winter break went by WAAAYY to fast... it should be two weeks not one week.. ugh.. on the bright side tomorrow I'm going to have a two night sleepover with my friends one of which will be Mysia yay!! :D oh and here's a digital mermaid drawing I did, I posted it on my deviantart too but I usually suck at digital drawings and this came out ok so I wanted to share it :)

It's all upside down

Ok I feel like people go on and on about "being yourself" and "express yourself" and I agree that you shouldn't be afraid to be yourself.

But it's gotten to a point, and especially in celebrities, that it's not about being yourself anymore,but about showing everyone "look at me, I'm being myself!" even when that's not who you are. Why should expressing yourself have to mean being, how do you put this, a competition? I feel like if you are happy about who you are then why do you have to find a bunch of ways to show everyone. I love being original and doing my own thing, but I don't do it because "being original" is what everyone else is doing. If "original" is considered doing everything over the top then it isn't "original", is it?

And another thing is why should you be proud of "being yourself" when the image of "yourself" is not that great. There is nothing to celebrate about being drunk,sluty and wrong! If your so happy about being that kind of self and you don't want to improve and be a better kind of person..... then sorry, I have no respect for you.

please pray!

My grandpa is in the hospital, and he might not make it it's the second time he had a stroke! please pray that he will be ok!! :(  I feel so bad.. I don't get to see my grandparents that often because they live in Poland, and the last time i went, in summer of 2009, I feel like I didn't spend as much time with him as I could've.  I really regret that, like I did sit down and talk, but I should have done that more often.. I don't know I guess I feel like that because if he doesn't make it.. I'm probably going to regret that for a long, long time.. I love my grandparents! <3

two nights ago..

my parents went to the hospital with my brother because he was sick for awhile and like at 4 am he kept coughing non-stop and he couldn't take it so they took him and they found out he has pneumonia but he's gonna be fine.  It's so weird he came back from the hospital and he was acting like as if he wasn't sick at all.. I swear I thought he was faking it but he wasn't.  We think he got sick from skiing he probably wasn't dressed properly even if it looked like he was. By the way, I NEED to learn how to crochet! random I know but I need to!

knitting project

Mon-mon asked me if I could make her this cute hooded kitty scarf. So once she gives me the yarn she wants I'll have a fun kitting project to work on. I love making stuff for people cuz I realized when it comes to making things for yourself your never as motivated as when it comes to making it for another person. Here's the link to the website were she got the pattern. The girl from the blog has some really cute stuff so check it out. It's crocheting patterns though and I only know how to knit at the moment but my mom can crochet so she'll tech me soon. My mom is awesome,she know how to do pretty much everything. :D ha ha well I'm done for now. I'll post more about the project once I start.

oxoxoxoxoxox

naaaasstty!! :(

well i had choir practice today, and somebody decided to go on a farting spree.. literally every 10 min for almost two hours i got a huge whiff of the nastiest fart I have EVER smelled! I couldn't wait to get out of there i wanted to throw up! ugh.. :/

soo sad.. :(

well today I went to panda express with my family.. and there was this guy there and I thought he was poor and he was, I just wasn't sure at first.  He was just sitting there, counting coins that he had.. I could barely eat, I felt like a pig.. eating food.. nothing to worry about.. :'( but I didn't have any money with me, so I asked my mom if we could give him some money, so we gave him 5 dollars, I felt good about that, it was enough for him to buy a meal, so that's good, he was mentally ill though.. cause he kind of just stared at the table, and didn't even notice when I gave him the money, but later he did, but he stood up and sat down like twice.. and still stared at the table,  I hope he bought something to eat.. :((((