A Lot To Catch Up On

hey! yeah I haven't posted in awhile and I still have to update what I did during the summer!  But I'll do that later.. right now I want to ran.  So I decided to do cross country at my school.. I've done it for two years, took a break one season and now I'm back..  But I don't know if that was such a good idea.  I am SO out of shape!! I'm always last in everything and it makes me feel like a failure.. I hate being last, I used to not care but now I do.  PLUS we did a workout today that made me so sore I could barely move, got a fever for some reason, and I screwed up my foot a little and it hurts.. Now I want to quit.. but I want to stay for my health though.. ugh.. idk what to do..