Two Random Stories

I really haven't posted anything in a LONG time, so anyway two mondays ago, we were watching a jungle documentary thing, and all of a sudden one kid started yelling and jumped up and backed away.  Suddenly people looked at the ground and did the same thing and then the entire class migrated to the farthest corners of the classroom!  It was hilarious!  I walked up to see why everyone was doing that and crawling across the ground was this HUGE bee!  It was the second biggest one I have ever seen in the area where I live!

And later in that same week I was at Fred Meyer when all of a sudden I heard "hello? hello? hello? hello? hello? ..." and it just kept repeating over and over, so I thought maybe it was some person doing that for the heck of it, or to annoy other people, but when I came down the escalator this guy had a parrot!  It was so cute! :D

Bring Nap Time Back!

Haha :P

dang it I have to be more of myself at school

as me.

now I have to survive 3 more period sitting and hoping another loud group dosn't dicied to sit in the same part of the library

text bloging.... yay :D
I have not forgoten you!

World Peace

This is something that has been troubling me lately... our world is super far from anything peaceful.. I'm trying to be optimistic, because even  though a couple of people told me that they think we're going to have a World War III,  I still believe there's a chance that we won't!  We always think about the weapons other countries are building, whether they're going to aim it at us or whatever... but honestly when you think about, I highly doubt those people want a war, any more than we do.  Life would just be so much better without weapons in peace and harmony.. but someone out there has to go and screw it up for everyone else.. the thing is if a war starts... well life as we know it is over.. with all the bombs in our world we're just really f**ked.  But I'm still praying that it will never happen.

Realistic Eyeball Stickers

Ever since I got the idea from a calvin and hobbes comic, I've always wanted to do this.  To put eyeball stickers or paint realistic eyes on my eyelids and sleep in school and see if it would work.  Now that would be the coolest thing ever!  I once did this with two of my friends with face painting stuff and they turned out fairly realistic and kinda creepy but it was so funny when we walked up to people with our eyes closed to see if they would notice and how they would react!  I can't find any place that sells eyeball stickers except for one.. but they don't look super realistic, but I think if I bought them (they're only two bucks) I could make it work... I just really want to try!

If not, I'll just save up for some good face painting stuff and see if I could paint some good ones! 

Dreams and Funny video

Well I have not updated in a while!  Anyway, one thing I want to talk about is.. once again, my dog.   I've been having these dreams with her in them, I just can't let her go.. and I don't want to.. I want to always remember every part of her :( .  The first dream I had with her in it was kind of confusing.  She was there but apparently she was supposed to be dead or would be soon, it didn't really make sense.  It was as if she was gone but was there... I'm guessing this dream represented my confusion about her being gone.. I still think she's going to appear out of nowhere.. I wish she would.. My second dream wasn't even her at first.  It was some German Shepherd that I was spending time with.. and at one point it was night time and there were street lights on and we were by this really tall wooden fence in some yard.  And I just kept hugging her, at one point it changed to my dog..

My third dream was my dad bought two new pets.. one was a dog and halfway through the dream it changed breeds.. I don't know what the first one was but the second was a dalmation.. the second one was a minature cow... don't ask lol (Rose you were actually in this dream I called you over to see the cow.. but then a bus almost drove into my house and took you to the airport and you didn't even say bye! D: )  Anyway, I really loved this dog in my dream but I couldn't bring myself to love him the same way as my dog, one because in real life I swore that I would always have German Shepherds (I love German Shepherd soooo much!) and 2. I wasn't really ready to have a new dog in the dream.. 

My fourth and last dream that I can remember was probably the most depressing for me.. basically I saw my dog alive and well and I was filled with joy and I ran toward her to hug her like I always did, by the time I got there she was sitting down and right when my arms were around her.. she disappeared into thin air..  I miss my dog

And to end this blogpost on a happier note.. here is the best parody of the old spice man I've ever seen, go puss in boots! Ok the embed option isn't working for some reason so here's the link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8JsbSolUF5c&feature=related

Am I going Crazy?

I HATE going downstairs in my house when it's dark and everyone's in bed downstairs.. I know nobody is down there but I still get REALLY paranoid.. I always feel like something is going to pop up out of the dark, or I'm going to turn around and see someone standing at my backyard door or in my window, etc.  But last night, for some reason, I just had this feeling or something (but then again I was at a choir thing from 9 am to 2 and I came home, had 10 minutes to relax, and then I went off on my way to a banquet to celebrate 25 years of polish scouting here where I live and that was till 12 am so I was really tired) and I've been thinking to myself, here I am wanting my dog to visit me, since I've heard countless of stories where people see their pets in the afterlife.. but in reality, that would scare the shit out of me if she suddenly appeared downstairs.. 

and as I was preparing a late-night snack I kept turning around expecting her to be there.. and then suddenly I kind of heard this sound, like when you open your mouth and your tongue peels away from the roof of your mouth sound? (I don't know how to describe it) but it sounded EXACTLY like the one my dog sometimes made, and I've NEVER heard that sound before downstairs, so I got freaking scared and I got that frozen in fear feeling wash over me and screamed... and in addition I scared the shit out of my parents.. and now I feel bad because I shouldn't be afraid of my own dog :/

Weird...

I just realized, even after all my complaints to my friends about having to write a vignette for school.. I actually realized I liked writing it.. even if it wasn't the greatest... I've always loved reading some poems but I can't really write my own... (I don't think I've ever mentioned on this blog my accidental "rapist" sonnet.. it wasn't about that but it sure sounded like it) but a vignette is like a vivid and detailed description.  I'm never going to post one on here because I'm never confident in sharing anything I wrote, but I made one about my dog and I really like how it turned out... and I felt like I got a lot of pent up feelings that I've been holding in for like three weeks (basically ever since my dog died).. sometimes my drawings are inspired by how I feel and I think vignettes will also help me get feelings out of my head on paper, and my personal journals I write will be more meaningful to me.

What I wish teachers would do

Ok, I get that we have to work hard in school, and I know high school generally means you're going to be over loaded with homework a lot, but seriously would it hurt THAT much to give us a freaking break once in a while??  My grades keep dropping because I can't keep up.  It's just non-stop from every class.  I want to have weekends all to myself, no f-ing homework involved.  We actually get a lot done in class and some homework just seems that it was assigned just so we're doing something at home.  IF IT'S NOT NECESSARY DON'T ASSIGN IT! 

Well, at least next week is the end of the semester so hopefully it'll calm down, and I can start fresh again.

I also think teachers should follow Albert Einsteins quote "If you can't explain it simply, you don't understand it enough."  SO true.. most of the time in my math class I get so confused cause he gives such complicated examples.. ugh

Radom time!

Procrastinators of the world,UNITE!! ..Tomorrow......

Missing Misia

I've already had countless of moments of wanting to hug Misia and be with her once again.. She still feels so alive to me.. it's weird because on the second day the whole realization that she's actually gone forever hit me hard... and I still know that... but I can't help but hope that I'll see her again when I open the garage, or when I look out into my backyard and see her laying on her pillow... Or see her digging in the yard..   I just want my dog back.

I was thinking earlier, how cool it would be if once in our life, anytime, we could visit the other side.  Just once, so we can see everyone that has died in our lives.  And I could be reunited with my dog.

Sadly that can't happen, so I'll just keep drawing myself with her to keep her alive in my mind and keep writing letters to her.  I know to people who haven't lost a pet or still have one that's alive, etc. might think I'm going overboard, but trust me I'm not.  I grew up with her and life feels empty without my little fuzzball...

Videos that Really Touch Me

I've been looking at these dog rescue videos lately and just overall sweet animal reunions and I just HAD to share some of them here.. They are so sweet :')

2/5/12 update: I uploaded the same video 5 times on accident but I'm to lazy to go find the other videos.. at the moment at least, if you want to find them or at least some similar ones go on godvine.com



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WHY ME????

Lately I have been checking this community college website regularly for the next available ceramics class since I really want to take it.  I then decided that I was going to look through some of the other classes they had to offer that I haven't looked at yet.  And then I saw it.  They had a FREAKING PARANORMAL STUDIES CLASS!!! I LOVE LOOKING INTO STUFF ABOUT THE PARANORMAL AND THERE WAS A F**KING CLASS!!!! AND PART OF THE CLASS WAS TO VISIT A SUPPOSEDLY HAUNTED PLACE AND USE TECHNOLOGY THAT WAS DEVELOPED FOR TESTING IF SOMETHING WAS THERE!! I WAS SO EXCITED.... and then I saw it was for 18 years and older... so now I'm pissed..  two more freaking years and I'll be able to go... I hope the class still exists then...

My Taste in Music

More than once I've gotten comments from my friends like "Omg, you've NEVER heard of this band before?"  or "You listen to THAT kind of music?"  Seriously, what the f**k.  Is it that wrong that my favorite genres are pop and dance/techno (sometimes it changes but most of the time)??  Actually, I love songs in every genre but those are my favorites.  I don't just like that type of music because it's "cool" or anything, just that kind appeals to me.  I don't need anyone telling me and pissing me off that they can't believe I don't know some f**king band.  I don't need too.  It's not like I don't know them because I'm ignorant or anything, I'm just NOT F-ING INTERESTED. PERIOD.

Let me re-state that I don't only listen to that kind of music, I have had favorite songs in almost every genre of music, like rock, country, bubble gum dance, even celtic music, and a LOT more.  It's not like I don't listen to other kinds, I just really love dance/techno and pop!

I enterd a class I don't belong in. :/ um ya

Take back almost... now it's forever: R.I.P. Misia, the best dog I ever had and ever will

On January 7, 2012 between 1:00 pm and 2:30 pm, We had to put my dog to sleep, I miss her so much.  The vet said that it was probably because of a tumor in the liver.  In her last moments, I knew it was time to let go.  She was on her side and could barely move and barely respond... I sat there, crying on the phone with my friend while I petted her and told her everything was going to be ok.  I once promised myself when the time came I would be there with her till her very last breath.  But my dad told me he wanted to go alone.  My friend told it's probably better if my last memory of her was when she was alive.  She's probably right, but I still kinda wish I went.  Before he took her to the car, I lay down by her and kissed her and told her how much I loved her, my little fuzzball.

Her death is really hard on me... I probably should've waited before writing this because I already started crying again.. but I needed to write this.  I'm going to miss going to school and her greeting me every morning and how I kiss her wittle nose or fore head.  How I return from school and we greet eachother.  I'm going to miss hugging her fuzzy body and her returning the favor by pushing into me or licking my face.  I'm going to miss petting her soft head, and stroking her even softer ears. I'm going to miss looking out the back yard window and seeing her chilling on her pillow just casually observing.  How she barked at other dogs to stay off her territory.  The dirt on her nose after she buried or unburied her bones.  Seeing her sniff/sense something underground and how she pawed at the ground.  How (when she was younger) would go crazy trying to kill bees, she would jump around like crazy.  When Misia still had the energy, if we got her hyped up enough, she would zoom across our front yard and backyard back and forth and top speed like as if she was high off of life.  I'm going to miss going on camping trips with her, she even went on our California, Arizona, Utah, Idaho+more road trip, and our three week Alaska road trip! (which Mysia and her dog went on too!)

Memories:

1. A couple of years ago when we went to Poland and later came back, our friend told us about how Misia went to their neighbors house and stole their steak right off the barbeque, apparently they don't know about it either lmao!

2. When I lived at my old house, I was playing with Misia outside and then she ran into my neighbors house INTO HIS FREAKING HOUSE and ran out with a chicken!  I was told recently that apparently she has done this on more than one occasion!

3. We had our family friends over and one of them was walking around with a sausage in his hand.  My dad heard him cussing all of a sudden and ran out to see what happened.  Turned out my dog snuck up right behind him and took it and ran for it!

4.  When my brother and I were younger we used to play with her by teasing her until she would start nibbling us.. we would be on the ground laughing and she wouldn't stop lol :) my little fuzzball...

5. When we were camping, and went canoeing, we saw from a distance through the lake plants, and bushes that our neighboring campers have left so we paddled over there and yelled for my mom to come.  She came with Misia.  I decided to get off there and my dad and brother paddled off back to the lake.  Later on, I was reading and occasionally checking up on Misia, but then I got really into my book.  I then checked up on her and saw her collar attached to her chain.  I started panicking OMG SHE'S GONE so I ran out searching for her but then I immediately saw that she was in the other campsite again.  Her paws were wet and she kept looking out towards the lake!  Poor thing, she was trying to find my dad and brother! But she was happy when they came back later!

6.  There was this giant plant that used to be in our backyard, my dog made her own cave back there! :)

7. When I was sitting in this gas powered cart thing with her and I wrapped the whole leash around my arm, and in that exact moment my mom came up with a bone for her, so my dog jumped out with me flying behind her (she was a young, strong dog then and I was a kindergartner or 1st grader lol) and I broke my thumb.  My backyard was kinda like a hill, and in the middle part was surround by bricks so I hit myself against them, lol.

8. My old house had a forest behind it, so Misia and I always went on our adventures together, exploring, playing, just enjoying life..

Will continue with more memories later, and also any comments about your own dog, like memories or how you went through their death, or a currently living dog, just anything, are greatly appreciated :)

The Terror of Almost Losing Something Dear to You

Well, I came home for lunch, my dog jumped up and barked at my friend as she usually does when people she doesn't know come into the house.  But just about two hours later I came back home from school and something was off.  She wasn't responding to the fact that I came home.  And I kept making noises and jumping around.  Nothing.  I started panicking.  She kept looking side to side and I thought she was dying since she wouldn't lift her head.  I was terrified, I started shaking violently.  I was not ready to lose my dog, I love her so much! 

So I stayed with her and comforted her.  Later on, she started being for active, She knew I was there when I petted her and stuff.  Then I handed her food gradually and she ate it, and sniffed everything the cute, usual way she does it, and later stood up too.  So, thank God, for now she's ok.  I thought her eyesight was completely gone, and most of her hearing, but it looks like she reacts a tiny bit when I move or say something really loud.  I thought she might've had a stroke, and I just looked up the symptoms a couple of minutes ago and some of them match how she's been acting.. like the turns head the other way when I call her name..

Well overall I'm glad she's fine for now, but I have to accept the fact that it will happen eventually... I'll miss her so much the rest of my life, but at least she lived this long, 12 years is a long time for a German Shepherd!  Anyway, I'll stop being all depressing for now, what matters at the moment is that even though her behavior changed a bit, she's good for now! :)

Facebook Petpeeve #1 and #2

One thing I absolutely hate on facebook is when girls make posts like "I'm ugly like my status if you disagree" or when they endlessly post pictures of themselves posing, making faces they consider "cute" etc.  It's one thing to take an occasional picture of yourself, friends having fun, whatever.  But it's extremely annoying when you're being a camera who** about it.  I especially hate the "phone in bathroom pics".  Just, ugh.  Do you really want attention that bad??

And another thing on facebook I don't like, is pictures I don't need to see.  I haven't had a problem with this until yesterday when I was scarred for life.  These types of pictures need to have a f**king warning that says, WARNING SOME PEOPLE MAY FIND THIS EXTREMELY DISTURBING, not just "like if you're against animal abuse, description and horrifying picture.  Now I will describe what it was and I'm going to try to make the font match the background color so you'll have to highlight it to see it, so WARNING DO NOT READ WHAT I'M ABOUT TO WRITE BELOW (even though it probably won't be as shocking as the picture itself but it's still disturbing.. and extremely sad)

Ok, so this picture was a German Shepherd with it's snout blown off.  Some stupid, fucking idiots put a firework in the poor dog's mouth and made sure he/she couldn't open it.  End result, dog with no snout lives for minutes after.. The dogs eyes in the picture looked so incredibly sad and the situation was horrible, I cried for hours straight and am still a little depressed right now.  The fact that it was a German Shepherd didn't help at all, it looked almost like my dog :'(

Lunch Bag Art

On Tumblr I found this guy who makes awesome art work on his kid's paper lunch bags!  How cool is that??  And they look so good!  It inspires me to do something like that... except I don't have kids (at the moment) one day I will and I will do the same!! :D  Anyways, check it out! Lunch Bag Art

Random Things

New Groove Coverage Songs I love:  My favorites songs at the moment are million tears and poison, look 'em up!

I love Pandora: I officially love Pandora internet radio, one of the stations I made, almost ALWAYS plays songs that I love! :D

when you find me movie trailer: It looks like a really beautiful short film and I want to see it!



Winter break was really awesome!  For Christmas we had family friends come and we watched Sherlock Holmes (even though I've already seen it!) and went to the 12 am mass for "pasterka".  Later on, I watched Spirited Away, had an art sleepover/doctor who marathon with a friend, was lazy and stayed up late and slept in, went to this music museum in the city with friends on a bus (won't specify where lol), had a new years eve party at my house, and started playing Kingdom Hearts II again!  I feel like this was a very good break! :D

I am officially addicted to the websites, Love Gives Me Hope, FML, and Smartphowned!

I have now decided that for my next art project, I'm going to design letters for my own font! (Not that I'm going to upload it anywhere to be used..)

I wish break didn't end..

FINALLY!!!

Ok, one: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

and more importantly.. : I FINALLY FREAKING BEAT KINGDOM HEARTS TWO!!!! :D IT'S MY FAVORITE GAME BUT I GAVE UP ON THE FINAL BATTLE A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO BECAUSE IT EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED ME, AND TODAY I GAVE IT A COUPLE OF SHOTS AND.... I WON!!!! Stupid Xemnas...